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If you stay with not knowing, with a mind that cannot touch knowledge and hold to it, as if the knot, the tie, got loosened before it's being tied again, being connected again, the chain of thoughts makes sense and feel real only when the thoughts are connected to an opinion, to a preference, even to a question. Not knowing means that there are no chains for a while, they melted. Can you stay with that?
Thoughts may be there, they have no use for you. All your opinions feel equally irrelevant, all your knowledge feel equally redundant, not hold truth. Doesn't give you the vital freshness of something that is truly real, authentic, genuine, original. Can you stay with that? What does it mean to stay with that? From here you have to try, you have to see for yourself, you have to allow yourself the free time, in which no plan, no cause, no reason penetrates, and you just drift for no reason, nowhere, without measure, without end. It's very easy if you try. The question is, can you stay with that?
What does it mean to stay with not knowing? If you will try, you will see that at that state, all left you. Your ideas, your opinions, your attachments, your relationship, your conditioning, what makes sense, what you mark to thrive for, what you pointed to avoid, all left you. And you are there. To stay with not knowing is to stay with yourself. It's so simple, you can see if you try. And if to stay with yourself is something that is real, nothing else is more freeing. It's the one thing that can really teach you about inner freedom.
And that inner freedom is not conceptually, it's not theoretical, it's not temporal. The fabric of it, the substance of it, it is made of unconditional happiness. Not made by you, not sustained by you, not maintained by you, just the nature of it is such. To stay without knowing is to stay with yourself, is the real teaching of what is inner freedom, that is unconditional happiness. And all you have to do is to try, and try again.
