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In self-inquiry, the inquiry—the questioning that goes inside—inside in the sense of the life experience as it is perceived and kept in memory, identity, the whole psychological self. The questioning of that, and through that of the nature of it as a whole, is self-inquiry.
In it, in self-inquiry, the real flowering of truth—the beginning of it, there is only beginning—is when you are the inquiry. You don’t ask a question about yourself, not even who you are or what you are. Your existence as you know it and beyond IS a question.
No one can put that question into words. Can someone put you or anyone else into words? No one can make use of it. You as a human being, you’re not a robotic mechanism that someone can make use of. You are a living being. You are creation manifested as a human being, but still it’s an organic uniqueness of the creation itself.
So only when the reality of the self-inquiry opens the eyes—eyes meaning the quality of observation—to see that the one that questions, that which is being questioned, and the question itself is one thing. You are the question before you put words to it. You are the questioning before you initiate or guide it. And in that, you are being questioned without choice, without reason, purpose, direction.
That question is so much you that you cannot ask it. You cannot separate from that question—it’s what you are. Self-inquiry is not a process. There is no end to it. Self-inquiry is the biggest gift of life.
And to meet it as it is, is when you start to see for real that the question is what you are. You don’t need to understand it, definitely not to agree with it. It helps you nothing with. There is a seeing that you’re not in distance from the question—it’s what you are.
In that you find peace. Greed is no longer the force of what you thought is self-inquiry. You can also say self-inquiry ends, but it means that it starts.
